Today was a particularly low and listless day for me.. hmm maybe cause I've got nothing much to do and basically lazing around too much? Watched Kang Xi Lai Le and it was an especially entertaining episode with the topic on celebrity couples that quarrelled ALOT. As they shared their stories, some were actually pretty sweet and it really showed the love that they had for each other. So unknowingly there is this envious feeling that keeps emerging. Sigh. Not that I am really craving for romance but I really wonder when it will be my turn to take the center stage. There have been times that was almost there but then again it was not meant to be. I have resigned to such a fate of mine. So when I think of this, it gets kinda sad isn't it?
I have been told more than once by friends that I probably appeared to not be looking and so the 'tao hua' did not come. But must I appear to be eager to find someone to actually get one? Why can't the person be motivated or want to approach me then? That is why I always stand by the fact that looks mattered. It always did. I have been moulded to become superficial. So it is not surprise for guys to feel the same way too. This also explains why I love piling on make up as a way to enhance my looks because I was not born with it.
So now the point is, are there any guys that caught my attention?
The thing is that there is and in fact more than one. But I have no clue what I can do to get the person's attention. There is no way that I will throw myself at the person. This made me wonder whether there is such a thing such as a person's will. If I want something in my heart hard enough, will it get me what I want? Does such a force even exist? I guess I may never find out...