Alright there have been instances when I wanted to blog but just got too lazy to blog. So basically today is valentines day and not like i have a date or anything... the fact is I nvr had one. So this year, its the same. (almost did not have anyone to have dinner with.__.) Oh wells so what made me want to blog so badly? I guess it hurts me or makes me feel sad to see people or friends that I care about smoking. If they are not important to me, I won't care about it at all. But well I just felt a sense of sadness suddenly and maybe cause I always choose to turn away so I hate myself for that... its damn SIAN! yep so as the whole world is celebrating this sweet and meaningful day. I choose to hide in my room (&$%#^#*&*&%) ok damn I should move on from this feeling already. yes and start to study and stuff......