People always say that it is good not being a relationship, so free and easy... Burdenless I guess? It is true.. But the lack of companionship sucks too right -.- you see people in pairs and wonder when will you ever be in a freaking relationship. I am always told that I will get my chance etc in uni. But I will never be so certain and sure. I guess I can say this, once (or mayb twice) bitten, very shy. It seems like i am always the one left behind i guess and perhaps forgotten. Now i do find myself pitiful.. And of course, it is not easy to see all your closest friends get attached, having their sweet lovey dovey moments that they dun actually have time for you. Actually i totally understand.. And yep they also have their own sets of problems that any normal couple will face. That is the downside. Despite all these.. It doesn't make me any much happier to be single. Why i guess it is partly abt the self esteem thing as i wonder whether i am not good enough, mayb every single person just finds me nice to talk to. Ok but i still tink that its the looks department that i really lack in zzz. Yes, i definitely have considered plastic surgery, and if and when the opportunity arises for me to do it, i probably whld! Ok so back to the point.. Yes regarding relationships.. I am no expert and definitely nvr got the chance to experience one YET.. But i always feel like i have already been through enough, heard enough to know what being in a relationship entails.
Ok yep.. So my personal experiences did not end up as ideal as i hoped. And the reason I suffered is probably because of my naivety and foolishness. I can't say that I've fully walked out of whatever I have gone through... But as days go by, it just seems easier for me I guess? Because like what everyone tells me, you're just not worth it because you'll nvr appreciate me for all that I have and can do for you! Ok soooo I must admit that I am still waiting for the day when I will have my own share of joy and happiness!