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wats worse is that i am not really doing that well too zzz
grahh..ok actually i feel deprived sometimes -.- I MISS NY!!!! (the feeling of having a classroom and hanging out with fellow four sixers~~)
so basically life has nvr seemed so hectic and stressful before and i dunno why but i really do hate myself for being clumsy, stupid, etc etc.... (the list goes on...) i guess its the feeling of being just not good enough??? it's been such a long time since i felt like i accomplished something o0 and basically i REALLY have alot of catching up to do..
so anyway... recently i just had my individual competition and seriously after this i really do tink that i am lacking in so many ways o0 i wonder why i even joined back...(but then agin i have nth else to join...)
For my event i got 5th out of 6th but actually i whld have gotten last so actually its quite pathetic... oh wells and then now we still have our group routine left, what can i say?
I tink i will pull everyone down but i can't afford to let it happen because we shld actually aim for the gold medal and i tink there is nth i can do but to work much much harder...
(ps. well this pretty much sums up how rotten i've been feeling... but i really do tink that evrything will eventually become better XD)