Potatopotty
16/6/92
NYGH
HCI
Lime magazine
Adobe photoshop CS2
sigh.. WHY AM I SUCH A FLOATER.........? May not be a bad thing at all i guess :/
|5:12 PM|
Every time I read blogs, they never fail to draw me to the one who's behind the screen. Even though I've never met them before or seen them in person, I can almost feel what they're feeling as they pour their innermost thoughts on their blogs. So I guess its pretty amazing the way people feel and connect with each other. Just a thought.
|2:15 PM|
Is it true when someone leaves your heart, it'll form a void which can never be filled?
|11:49 AM|
CNY has been pretty awesome with the long holiday but then its coming to an end already :/ feeling so lowww! omg maybe its the redrawal symptom or probably cause I just can't focus on being productive and I still have so many things that'll be due pretty soon! *kill me please*
So not in a very good mood basically... I feel like I just become emo and all... ._.
ok so shld I have tuition tmr or sth? alright #foreveralone
|10:16 PM|
Today was a particularly low and listless day for me.. hmm maybe cause I've got nothing much to do and basically lazing around too much? Watched Kang Xi Lai Le and it was an especially entertaining episode with the topic on celebrity couples that quarrelled ALOT. As they shared their stories, some were actually pretty sweet and it really showed the love that they had for each other. So unknowingly there is this envious feeling that keeps emerging. Sigh. Not that I am really craving for romance but I really wonder when it will be my turn to take the center stage. There have been times that was almost there but then again it was not meant to be. I have resigned to such a fate of mine. So when I think of this, it gets kinda sad isn't it?
I have been told more than once by friends that I probably appeared to not be looking and so the 'tao hua' did not come. But must I appear to be eager to find someone to actually get one? Why can't the person be motivated or want to approach me then? That is why I always stand by the fact that looks mattered. It always did. I have been moulded to become superficial. So it is not surprise for guys to feel the same way too. This also explains why I love piling on make up as a way to enhance my looks because I was not born with it.
So now the point is, are there any guys that caught my attention?
The thing is that there is and in fact more than one. But I have no clue what I can do to get the person's attention. There is no way that I will throw myself at the person. This made me wonder whether there is such a thing such as a person's will. If I want something in my heart hard enough, will it get me what I want? Does such a force even exist? I guess I may never find out...
|11:56 PM|
Ok... I've totally neglected this blog haven't I? I have zero idea when I last posted. Oh right... it was about losing my wallet! WELL good news is that I've gotten it back! That person is really SUPER NICE! damn grateful for it!!! But it still doesn't change the fact that I have lost my camera and 2 phones hur! :P So today is one of the random days when I have a sudden urge to blog. Funny how more often than not the reason for triggering this is the same ___.
Over the past few months...
End of 1st year in NTU
Summer break
Bangkok trip with cousin and mum
Working at Nandos
Meeting kimmy, gail, xinyi, sim, ziyan etc etc. MY MANAGERS! mae, boss, edgar and other colleagues.
SU19 senior's camp
Preparation for camp: Late nights practicing dance and video filming
Meeting kel and yap
Disney Batam trip
NBS FOC'12
Dip- dyeing with purple hair!
MY HANSEL OG!! <3 p="p">Sports Camp! Lack of sleep, stress, tears, friendships, relieve, pushing of limits -.-
Post camp activities: NBS BASH, DND,Sports Bash, Sports Ball
Clubbing
Experiences, mistakes, regrets, unhappiness, negativity, doubts, confusion, giving up and moving forward
Specialising in Marketing
Sch projects, assignments, quizzes
Jap classmates ^^
New phone, got instagram!
Meeting yap and elaine
Meeting up with the boys!
Supper with yue, kiwi, kj
Celebrating Mel's B'day
Movie Dates
Recess week outings, meet ups!
Second piercing!
Short hair
Finally a dinner with dav, ernest, faith and sarah (where's serene ><)
Looking forward to USS HALLOWEEN!!!
|9:15 PM|
I HAVE NVR FELT SO MUCH LOSS BEFORE... OH MY GOD PLS LET ME JUST GET BACK MY WALLET! I ONLY HOPE FOR IT TO COME BACK TO ME! PLSPLSPLS! even if all the cash is gone... I REALLY HOPE I WILL GET IT BACK! THERE IS SOMETHING SERIOUSLY WRONG WITH ME! SO PLS HELP ME!!!! THIS IS ALL I WISH PLSSSSSSSS
|12:01 AM|
OK totally irrelevant picture but...anyway I feel really horrible. No matter what I do, I feel super unprepared... STRESSED OUT! This term has turned out to be worse than before :/ Yes everyone around me seems to be doing better >< sucks to think that I would do better and my GPA would improve greatly... sucks. I guess the worse part is when getting back of results! all the disappointment -.- only thing I really hope for is that I DUN HAVE TO RETAKE ANY MODS! Noooo please don't let me fail ._. will be super embarrassing...
BTW I feel lonelier than ever. I have no one to study with! cx and kel are in aus, and I seriously think that its not easy to strengthen newly formed friendships. Its true isn't it? When I am trying to think of people to study with, I come up with none because I seriously think that they will have their own best friends/budds to study with. So in the end, I ended up alone :S Going to the library alone to study seems quite sad, but at least I see many others studying alone too! May I find my study gang soon...
Everyone thinks that I suit marketing, so hopefully after I have decided to specialise into marketing, everything will get better for me!
|2:30 PM|
This is one of the few times when I feel like crying... those sad vibes that come from nowhere :'( ahhh so sad. maybe its cause of self pity...
|11:54 PM|
Circumstances have made me a very lonely person ._.
|1:18 AM|